so mom just called me a couple of hours ago and grandpa passed away. he went in his sleep at least so thats a plus, and according to mom he had had a really good day yesterday and was coherent and joking and even ate a raspberry shake that he had been craving ... so it could have been worse. They plan to tell grandma this afternoon which i must admit i'm glad i won't be around for. No plans have been made yet, he wanted to be creamated so they aren't going to do an actual funeral, they'll wait until grandma is out of the hospital and just hold a memorial service.

   I am glad that he isn't suffering anymore, and i'm so grateful that he went the way he did, but right now i'm still feeling sorry for myself and my family. 

   I love all of you and i'm so thankful to have you all in my life.